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Therapist: Tell me something, Cari…did you really believed that you and Alessio will get married?

Me: Of course i did…for me it was obvious…but, like you said before, i was living in a self-created world in my imagination…and when all broke down…

T.: You used to blame others, point a finger to the “guilty part”…

Me: Yes, i guess it felt easier this way…i was never responsible of anything, never admitting i could be wrong…

“The sea was agitated that day, big stormy waves colored in dark blue. He was holding her tight and she never felt more protected in her entire life. More loved…

-Amore mio…that’s how i feel knowing i’m going back to school so soon…i know i’ll count the days waiting for the weekends, to be with you. It was the happiest summer in my entire life…

He looked at her thinking she’s adorable…the way she held him like she was afraid he’ll disappear. He caressed her long hair, smiling.

-I’ll make sure you’ll have the happiest fall and than a magic winter and than the spring…

-When i’ll turn 18 and we’ll…

She stopped just in time. She never wanted to pressure him or act like a desperate woman…He started to laugh seeing her blushing.

-Cari, you still amazes me…didn’t i told you how we’ll make every single dream of yours become reality? So, first you gotta graduate high school. You’ll go to College, and i’m going to make sure you’re taking your studies very serious! To show your parents how wrong they are…

-My parents…their dream for me is to finish high school and get married to some boy, the son of a business partner…And all i dream…

-…is to marry me and to give me three children! Come on, silly, i’m just teasing you…This is MY dream! OK? In April, next year…you’ll do me the honor…

She almost jumped of joy, kissing him and whispering in his ear how lucky she feels, how blessed she was to be with him…How much she loves him. They almost didn’t hear the lousy crowd coming toward them…

-Well, well, well…look who’s here…Alex and the kid! Honey, isn’t it already your bedtime? Alex, look at the clock…is eight in the evening…put the baby to sleep!

She looked shocked at the woman who spoke. He never told her about his friends, but…how could they be his friends after all…He took her hand, holding her very protective…

-Well, look who’s here…Lucia the whore and her f…ck buddies…you guys look lost…why don’t you drown yourselves and save us from your shit…

He saw her getting pale and he knew how she must feel. So he gently whispered in her ear: let’s go and they turned their back to Lucia and the rest of the crowd. They walked silently by the sea, he…trying to guess what’s in her mind, she…trying to process…

-Tesoro mio, Cari…are you alright? I’m sorry for those bastards…they belong to a part of my life i’m ashamed to remember. Don’t let them get to you like that…

-They were so rude to me…to us…And you, Alessio…you called her in such an ugly term…and you used that word…

-What word? Ah…i know! Well, people use it when they are mad…you never…?

-…use that word? No! It’s an ugly word! Please, don’t ever say it again…

He felt tempted, for a short moment, to repeat the word, just to see her blushing again. He couldn’t stop laughing…

-What?

-Carissa Maria Provenzano…do you know you’re the sweetest and the cutest girl i ever imagined? Now…tell me the truth? What fairy tale did you came from? A world where every human being is pure and good and loving like yourself?

She smiled for the first time.

-Know something…people can be pure and good and loving if you chose to see them like this! If you give them a chance to be like this…

He suddenly became serious.

-No…reality is not like this…there are Vultures and Thieves and Sharks all over the place…waiting for the right moment. Cari…i love you the way you are…you’re like a breath of fresh air to me but…you’re so unprepared to face this world…Amore…they will eat you alive if you show the least sign of weakness. And, unfortunately…being good and loving is a sign of weakness…

-It could be…but i have you! I have my Prince to protect me and i’m sheltered in your arms…if i’ll have you in my life, no shark will came near me, right?

He kissed her hair and lifted her chin so he could look deep into her eyes. He wanted to tell her something but he changed his mind.

-Cari…as long as i’m alive…i wont let no one hurt you. You’re safe…”

Therapist: Interesting…he saw Vultures and Thieves everywhere around…you were seeing good loving people…Who was right?

Me: No one…the truth is somewhere in the middle. I learned in time that no one is good or bad…we’re all a mixture of qualities and faults. And i think this is what makes us interesting and, maybe, what gives us the capacity of falling in love so deeply…

T: continue…

Me: What makes us humans…it also makes us beautiful…

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